Hi guys! Recently, I’ve been feeling very confused about where I am and where I should be later on. More precisely, I’ve been feeling lost about what I want to be, what I want to study in. I thought it might be nice to share these thoughts with you guys. Here we go!
As you guys know, I am a student. Currently, I am in Cegep. Some of you might be confused, like, what the hell is cegep?! Here, in Quebec, we have kindergarten, 6 years of primary school, 5 years of high school and then 2-3 years of cegep. After that, we can go to university.
So, as I was saying, I’m currently in my last year of cegep. In a few months, I will have to apply to university. The thing is, I have no clue what I want to do… I didn’t take science classes such as chemistry and physics, so I know I can’t go into anything medical or science related. I did do my advanced math classes.
At first I had all these idealistic thoughts, where I thought I could open myself a bakery, be a baker or go into the music industry. Of course, when you are younger, you dream of many things and life seems pretty easy. Except, as the time went by, I realised all I really wanted was to get school over with, get a stable job and start a family. I thought of being a primary school teacher, since I love kids, but I realised that maybe that wasn’t the job for me, it’s a lot of discipline, big classes and all. That realisation really bothered me, because I like to have a clear plan of what’s ahead, and that blew mine all away. Now I feel kind of lost and confused. Since then, I’ve been revisiting old ideas such as baking and business. But I can’t seem to find anything that screams “YES”.
Now, people keep telling me not to worry, and that I can always try out a few things, but to be honest, I really don’t like school and the thought of prolonging my studies isn’t encouraging. I’m so focused on wanting them to be over… maybe that’s just it, I’m too focused on them being over that I can’t appreciate the journey and so nothing seems encouraging…
Anyways, I still have lots of thinking and researching to do, but I’ll end the post here. Thank you so much for reading! I would love it if you left in the comments how you’ve been feeling! Don’t forget to like and follow me either via email or wordpress! I will be back next Sunday, and don’t forget, all my social media is linked below!
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